Man, I'm so bummed out today. I guess it's because I'm little lonely. I have some friends, mind you, but I'm lonely for a different reason: Love.

Yes, I long for love. I long to find that one and only someone for me. One to be there with me, to care for me, one that I want to be with forever.

I have fallen in love with females in the past, however, with all of them, I have failed to get their attention and they slip through my fingers like cold ice. Here I am, almost done with high school and not one girlfriend, not one kiss. Oh, how I long for it!

I have become so desperate for love that I dream of the girl that is perfect! That perfect golden girl that is out there for me. Out there with her medium long brunette hair that waves through the wind dazzling the sky. It's not perfectly neat, but neither is mine. She wants to look nice, but is not obsessed with it. Yes, with those beautiful blue eyes that bleaches the sky and the ocean. Yes, to me, she is beautiful, but who she is is even more beautiful. She has the kindness that she shows to everyone she meets. She helps those who cry for help. Quiet, yet energetic. She is smart and knows what is right, and she is brave so she stands up for it. She is funny so she is always interesting to be around. Oh, how I long for such a thing.

Yet, here I stand, alone and afraid. Were such a girl to appear before me in the flesh, I, in my cowardice, too afraid to speak to her. Oh, my dream girl please, understand. If only I had the courage, if only if I had the guts, if only I had the will. Oh, how I long for us to be together...

But, alas, that such a thing will ever happen... I sigh in despare... Wishing, wondering, fantasising...

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Wow... I'm REALLY lonely...

Well, at any rate, my brother FINALLY convinced me to make a facebook account... don't be expecting many updates though...